"It's noon and you're still sleeping?"

"It's noon and you're still sleeping?" I hear this a lot! Sounds terrible right? Well, I suppose to someone who doesn't have a chronic pain and/or chronic fatigue it does. On one hand, I feel guilty for sleeping in so late but on the other hand...not really. I don't know why I feel guilty. I think maybe because it is a stigma that you shouldn't sleep until noon. I don't know but I do know that I can't work anymore, the kids are in school and hubby is at work. So, really, why do I need to wake up at 8am?

I have a terrible time going to sleep at night. My mind races. I can't get comfortable. I can't lay in one spot for too long because I get stiff and muscles start to spasm. When I actually do fall asleep, I am either waking up with every turn because of pain, physically acting out my dreams and talking in my sleep. Oh, and of course, the restless leg syndrome/periodic limb movement disorder. Hmm...no wonder why I wake up feeling like I only had a hour of sleep!

Yes, when I said "physically acting out my dreams" is really what I mean. I have fallen out of bed twice because I woke up acting out a dream. (Bump on my head and swelling to my elbow. Great, what's next? Broken hip!) My hubby will wake me up sometimes because he says that I am reaching my hand out to hand something to somebody or I am trying to reach for something. Weird, I know.

Talking in my sleep is great entertainment for my hubby. He tells me that I will just start talking. He also tells me that we have conversations in the middle of the night and I appear to be awake but never remember them the next day. I told him "Well, I will never be able to cheat on you because I would probably tell you in the middle of the night." 

Back to what I was saying (damn fibro)...When I wake up in the morning (or afternoon) I have to make myself to wake up. I can keep sleeping and sleeping well into late afternoon. Recently, I have been making myself get up at 9 am but then by noon, I am so exhausted, I have to take a nap. So, am I defeating the purpose?

I decided to try Melatonin about a month ago. I am not one for supplements or natural medicine (except for medicinal marijuana of course) but it does seem to help some. Along with my other bedtime medications, I don't know why I am not knocked out. All the medicines may be the reason why I can just keep sleeping or vice versa?? Who knows!

So yeah, I do sometimes, majority of the time, sleep until noon. Am I depressed and that is why, no. Do I like it, no. Does it make me feel unnecessary guilt? Of course it does! But I feel, I am not missing out on anything. No one is at home in the morning. It is quiet and peaceful. So what is the harm?

Hugs!!
Jenn

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