This was really getting to me. I thought that she didn't want to hang out. I felt that I would be a burden to her. Example, she took me to a retail store. Pushed me in a wheelchair. We had a great time and I got exhausted. But I felt that this is an inconvenience for her. So, finally the other day, I said to her "you know I love you but why don't you ever want to hang out or do something? She said "Jenn, I do want to do things together. I wish that we could do more. But I know that you get so exhausted with simple things. I will feel guilty that it would put you down for 3 days". I would have never guessed she felt guilty. I said "you know, I get exhausted doing dishes, who cares? We have so much fun together. When I get exhausted, I will tell you. It's not your fault. I feel worse when we don't do anything. I feel as though I am trapped in this house sometimes. You are not going to kill me if we do something together. Unless it's canoeing!" (seen Jesus twice that day lol) At this point we were both laughing.
So we decided that we are going to do more things together. Even when I have to stop and lay down. I'm used to doing that anyways. I will re-enforce that my exhaustion is not her fault.
This conversation needed to happen long ago. Communication is the key. Not only in marriage but in friendship.
P.S-my dear best friend, if you are reading this, I love you and I don't know what I would do without you! Also, I do forgive you for trying to kill me those 2 times when we were canoeing. Truthfully, I never had so much fun and laughed so hard! Love you and thank you for being there anytime of the day or night!